Januarylied

● Don't Know How To Feel

❥┃ I ponder the depths of my soul as I struggle to comprehend what I feel

These emotions swirling around me

So out of control making it hard to find something that’s real

Questions arise in my mind

Searching for answers I can't seem to find

Tasks that were once so easy

now seem so hard to define

My heart cries out for understanding

My mind seeks a greater truth in this journey of life

I'm demanding

The search may be long and arduous

But I must push through the pain and strife

In the end I hope one day I will be victorious

as I learn to hopefully find peace in this life

I'm lost in a thought of why

Is this life or just a lie

Fabricated from my own perception of what I assume it means to be alive

not just survive

Deep inside

I'm searching for why

Reflecting on the moments that have passed me by

asking if there's any truth to find

I question what's real

What lies beneath the surface of my emotions

Tears of pain and sorrow

Simple tasks are a trial to challenge my mind

I try to comprehend the reason I can't seem to mend

The pain of life

so hard to bare

all my hope

just seems to tear

The world around

so hard to see

My life just feels like one big mystery

I search for answers

But all I seem to find are just more questions

I used to take pleasure in the things I loved to do

Now I can find no joy in anything that I pursue

I cannot comprehend the lack of joy I feel

And all I have are questions

That I can’t seem to reveal

How do I articulate my thoughts in a way that’s understood

As I sit here in silence

My mind races

but my words stay subdued

Maybe I’ll just always be misunderstood ┃ ▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂▂